tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27418365700242708892011-04-21T14:19:04.663-07:00Everyday Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11171644005130277538noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2741836570024270889.post-20565796933065394342009-04-24T23:08:00.000-07:002009-04-24T23:15:52.636-07:00<strong><span style="color:#993399;">I'm new to blogging. I guess as I sit here on my computer at 2 a.m. I am just looking for new ways to deal with the stuff I am going through. Here is some background, I am 20 years old in University. I have commitement issues with men, in the sense that I always seem to be unfaithful to my boyfriends, are rarely feel guilty for it. I am not unfaithful with random people. I am unfaithful with past boyfriends, or good friends. I am issues with anxiety that I have been working on for several years now. I also have very hard time trusting girls. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;">I am really surprised at myself for giving such an honest description. Sometimes its hard to admit what you really feel or think about something. I feel like ever since I turned something along the ages of 12 I have been in this incessant emotional turmoil that just seems never ending. Now as I sit here a week before my 21st birthday I am wondering if I have really come that far. I still have no idea whether or not guys are interested in me, am extremely insecure about my appearance and cannot trust a girl for the life of me. Sure, things have happened to support these things, but I wonder why I cannot just shake them, especially when my head knows the truth but somehow my heart's opinion just seem to take over every time. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;">I guess the purpose of my writing this blog is to get this out there, and somehow see if anyone else out there feels just as lost as I do. Why is it that I cant stay with a guy and be happy with him? I guess thats enough for now. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#993399;">Good night</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2741836570024270889-2056579693306539434?l=girlsearching.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Everyday Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11171644005130277538noreply@blogger.com0